Her

Suddenly, i just felt the urge to post this, i dont know why.

I really love her, after knowing her for quite some time, i can safely say that i really love her. i would say that we're progressing quite well, not exactly rushing into things and allowing nature to take its place. i really really treasure this relationship that we have.

but sometimes, it just feels as if its a little complicated. like not what i would expect it to be like. but once again, its the expectation that ruins things isnt it? and i cant let it happen. i cant afford to let things be ruined. she means too much to me, way too much. she's just constantly on my mind. and i know, never give up on something that you cant go a day without thinking about.

i really thank God for bringing her into my life. a girl so shy on the outside, but full of warmth and compassion on the inside, that not many people actually do realise. and i'm not gonna take her for granted.

much as i want us to be together and go really far, i want this to be a God-willing relationship. He needs to be the centre of it all. (:

Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out

How this world turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

It's okay, it's okay, it's okay

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you, I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

'Cause you're my, you're my, my
My true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away

'Cause I'm here for you
Please don't walk away
And please tell me, you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know, I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever


it is my dream, to hold, to hug, to kiss, to cry, to laugh together, and simply be there for you through it all.
i love you. <3

Y Camp Challenge Dec 2011

okay, so another y camp has ended. and compared to last year's dec ycamp, i would say last year one's better, but from the volunteer's point of view. this year's one's good too! if not for all the screw ups, but we handled that pretty well too didnt we? and after all the planning and organising and coordinating, the comm members did our best to make it happen, and we're just glad that the beneficiaries themselves had alot of fun! (:

and i really wanna thank God for His grace for this experience, this journey, walking along side with the rest of the awesome comm members for so many months. its my first time being a leader, and i wouldnt say i did well. there're many points and areas for improvement so i'll try harder next time if there's another opportunity! just wanna say well done to sian ying and julius, for sacrificing so much of their time for this camp, and its them whom have been working the hardest. and of course my buddy xinyan, whom i've worked hard together to lead Chimpanzee, and i guess it turned out pretty good. (:

and as i began to embark on the next phase of my life, there's so many things to think about. 2011 has been a good year for me, and i would say it ended well in commandos. i got involved more in YMCA, which is meaningful and enjoyable so far, and i entered into usher ministry. i thank God for His strength in 2011, and i know i'll be leaning on Him even more in 2012. even though army has ended, there'll be work, SOT, ushering, SHINE youth festival, June YCC 2012 to do/plan. i just pray that God will grant me wisdom so that i'll be able to manage my time well enough so that things wont clash with one another. (:

may the year 2012 be the best year yet! :D

and of course with meow too. (:

ORD LO!

its here. finally its here. much as i want to ORD asap right now, i know that i'll somehow miss the things that we did together, the trainings, the turnouts, and missions. especially the brothers.

i seriously thank God for putting me in CDO, the past 1 year 10 months have been unforgettable, i have grown, stronger, mentally and physically. being able to achieved things which i've never thought i would. and i believe it'll aid me greatly in my future, in facing difficult situations, difficult challenges. (:

this is what my OC said:

This week, my Panthers will transit from National Service(NS) to Operational Ready National Service(ORNS) personnel. Thank you all for the experience and challenges set upon coy & me. My quote to all Panthers: It's not what you wear (beret) that's sets u apart, it's what's within you that make u who u r. Always lean onto values when in doubt. :) For Honour & Glory!

yes i will. (:

Arise & Build

its gonna be stretching. but its gonna be worth it. (: my church, my life. (:

Inconsolable

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgKGtQjpRW4

Inconsolable:

I close the door
Like so many times, so many times before
Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor
I'm gonna let you walk away tonight
Without a word

I try to sleep, yeah
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh
If you were here right now, I swear,
I´d tell you this

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no.
I never write the number
So I cannot make the call
Maybe 'cause I know you''ll always be with me
In the possibilities

CHORUS:
Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I''m inconsolable

Don't you know it baby
I don''t want to waste another day

I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

Misconception

enough. its getting real annoying. shall not say anything to anyone anymore.

A Heart Of Compassion

church service on sunday morning with some of the cell, due to daniel's commissioning parade on saturday. wow, he finally commissioned, really proud of him, but not just about the commissioning part, but the decision to actually go for OCS and extend 4 months of ORD date when he can choose to go SCS without having to extend. wow. would i have done that if i were him? i really dont know.

Loving People Fervently- the title of the sermon of Pastor Kong today. great service really, touching on the DNA of City Harvest Church, which is to love God wholeheartedly and to love people fervently. the reason for the many breakthroughs in church's history. Pastor's sermon was accompanied along with many testimonies, of how members went all out to reach out to them and touched their lives, and goodness, it was really touching. of how they actually gave sacrificially to others. we kept tearing, and there was a part which was on JAMS church. which means Jesus for All MindS. they cater for the intellectually challenged people and i'm glad that i'm volunteering with YMCA right now, cause its totally worthwhile to exchange a few hours of our lives to bless the beneficiaries with love and joy.

A heart of compassion for the people, and doing more expected, shining for the Lord.

saturday was y outing with y stars. it generally went well, had fun with the beneficiaries and during debriefing, we were discussing about the events that ymca has and it was heartwarming to see the new volunteers enthusiastically volunteering for the other events, and it was heartwarming and funny, cause it kinda have this deja vu feeling. haha.

issues are starting to build up again.

anyway, today marks the start of a 5 days vege fast. pray and fast. Lord, be with me.

YCC SEP 2011 :D

Lord, thank You for the experience I had during the past 3 days at Y camp challenge. Though it's my second camp, it was different in many ways. My buddy was more challenging, the group was smaller and it was more tiring somehow.
But Lord, I thank You for these challenges that You have placed during this camp, to test my patience and temper, to enlarge my capacity to love and to care.
Thank You also, for granting me the strength and energy that I needed for this whole camp and I hope that whatever I did was pleasing to You, and that I managed to shine for You through my actions.
Lord, I pray that my buddy has been blessed by me through this camp, and that he did enjoy himself to the fullest in every activity that he participated in.
I pray that You will continue to bless him with wisdom and health, that he'll grow up to be a happy and smart and strong and healthy man in the future.
Lastly, Lord, I pray that for dec ycc, You will help and guide me to be a strong and wise leader, that no matter what obstacles and challenges there might be along the way, we, as a committee, will be able to pull through and make YCC Dec 11 an awesome camp for the volunteers and the beneficiaries! :D
AMEN!


Quote of the day:
Don't give up in what you're doing cause you never know how others might be inspired by the way you're persevering. (: